Someone dares to wonder about the commitment, unparalleled devotion, infinite love, mercy and compassion that a parent, in my case a mother with a severely Autistic son has at their innermost core being. Not to mention courage, strength, might, valor, super human non-stop activity and neverending protection and prevention of what is unheard for anyone else.
Someone dares to say, inspect or even question what practically the whole population takes for granted, normal development of a human being who cannot go beyond 3 to 5 years old, if so, and they are 5'10" tall, weight 165 pounds, is super handsome, yet cannot be left alone for lack of understanding of danger at any level. Who is a saint, an angel yet in a moment move furniture and all there is. Other times, moves things ever so carefully as touching a butterfly wing or a rose petal as not to break it.
How do I feel when is two am and he wants so much to go to his school of so many years, now an adult center that for him is one of his most loved treasures. His taking out his clothes daily at 2, 3, 4, 5, 6 am because its time to go. Who is asleep and comes out to put those clothes back to where they belong, because he remembered.
Who yesterday in the afternoon in another of his his most loved activities, the car outings, went with me to say hello to my loving friend and her grandson and he was able to only acknowledge him touching his own chest. It broke my heart, yet as I told her, its ok, we are lucky and blessed to have each other, find the greatest of joys in the smallest of things and make the best of it all. She turned around hiding a tear in her eye.
Is neverending devotion without a doubt which I am honored to share in this life journey with him. It has given me the wisdom to appreciate so so much that, as said before others simply take for granted, all the benchmarks of childhood, adolescence, even adulthood.
What a joy for the all gifts he gives me daily in the smallest yet grand manner coming from him, for all the unsaid words, life ceremonies and milestones not understood, for missing out on so much regardless of it being given to him to experience and for the dreams that regardless it all I still dream for him. This to me is a life worth living.
So, yes, that ever joyful person that never gives up and is do grateful to life, may have a huge battle to fight, yet learn from them, you will find that your troubles look smaller, insignificant in comparison the mountains that others have to climb in their daily living. Be grateful for all beings, especially ones like Omar. because they definitely make life worth living for us all.
For you Omar and as I tell you always, Proud, Honored and Infinitely Grateful to be your mom!
By Rev Barby Soliman
Photo and blog entry from my heart and soul
March 29th, 2017 2 am
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